Speechless
Words are failing me...
And so I find myself in the presence of my father
I have come before His throne to tell Him what’s on my mind
I open my mouth to speak and…
Nothing.
My words fail me.
All of a sudden, my speech becomes nonexistent.
I am standing before the Lord of the universe and all I can do is exist in his presence.
I find myself speechless.
I am before His Majesty, and I find myself speechless.
I have come thinking that I can impress you with vocabulary
When I was making my way to Your Holy Presence, I thought my words would move you.
For a second, I forgot who you are.
For the scriptures tell me that in the beginning was THE WORD and THE WORD is GOD.
And here I am, thinking that I can use my words in the presence of He who gives me the ability to speak.
How can I express myself to Him who is more than words?
What do I say?
How do I say it?
What do I do?
Where do I start from?
What words survive in the presence of The Word?
What can I even say before THE WORD Himself?
And this is the hope I have in You.
That you do not need my eloquence to hear me.
I do not always need to get it right.
Because you hear me. You see me.
Even when I am silent, you hear the cries of my heart.
Just like you heard Ishmael crying in the wilderness.
You will hear me, even when I do not speak.
And I know that you are my intercessor.
For I do not know what to pray for as I ought.
Holy Spirit, sing through me, when my words fail.
Help me worship, when I cannot.
Make intercessions for me with wordless groans.
For the Father knows all hearts.
And He knows what the Spirit is saying.
And so once again, I come into your Presence.
This time, not for performance.
But to be naked and vulnerable before my Maker.
That even when my words fail me, I need not fret.
Because you are the one who gives me utterance.
And even if all I can do is tearfully chant HOLY;
It is enough.
Because you are more than enough.
I'll just sing la la la la la la 😫
Holy Spirit, sing through me when my words fail🙏🏽