Stay
A psalm of Jedidiah.
When did silence become so loud?
Why does distance stare me in the face?
Why does it feel like I’m thirsty, even though I think I drink?
My strength feels low.
I stumble when adversity shows up.
I listen to hear Him speak.
But all I get is the deafening sound of nothing.
But I choose to stay.
I have no other choice.
In the silence, I will keep listening.
In spite of the distance, I will keep fighting to take one more step closer.
Through the dry patch, I will drag my frame across.
I choose to stay.
Even when the situations speak the opposite.
I choose to stay.
Even when it feels like a failed investment.
I choose to stay.
Even when I see strength ebb away.
I choose to stay.
I have come to the end of myself.
I realise that mortal strength cannot take a man far.
I see that I have no power of my own.
I know now, that you are the only source of life I need to lean on.
I know that you are that bread which I utterly hunger for.
Truly, there is a God, and I am not Him.
But even though you slay me.
And even if you decide not to heed my screams.
I choose to stay.
I judge you faithful.
I hold on to your goodness.
Even when the storms threaten to submerge me.
And the battles threaten to consume me.
I will stay.